never expected this day will come but here i am..

 yes, i think i am pregnant although im not 100% percent sure about this, i have book an appointment the obgyn this saturday! (excited and anxious at the same time). i choose bwcc, no reason just feel like it, i never thought about this but when i found out that i am pregnant, i know right away that i dont want to do this in hospital, so i chose klinik instead, why? because it's not as overwhelming as hospital is (just me and my thoughts ya).

i instantly contact my friend, Sheila, the sweetest mom of 1 (soon to be 2!), she gave me doctor recommendation, yoga class, couple class, and yada yada.

we haven't told our family, maybe after the obgyn visits i guess, but of course it will happen eventually, i now kinda picturing what my life would be with da baby, still awkward and cant imagine! (giggling while writing this LOL), for now, i just want to sleep as MUCH as I CAN, before the baby arrives and make me obsess with him/her and couldnt sleep at all.

this morning, Daffa drives me to the office, looking to the backseat of the card thinking that in one year, there will be the three of us :") together forever. oh no, i kinda mellow thinking about this.

i have my struggle and my fear, but im so hopefull and excited. so far this gummy bear size baby (for now) making me loose all my appetite, like literally i can't see myself eating anything, just take a look or imagine food (any food!) already making me sick.

and my chest and tummy feeling burn in the night until i woke up in the 3 am, and im tired, and sleepy all the time, i dont feel like doing anything, literally, anything. 

i dont know what the future holds but please pray for me, husband, and our baby healthiness muah muah.

+ the testpack picture i took yesterday (31 August 2021)

the left one is when i was back from the office, and the right one is from the morning!